There will always be someone who does better than me... Although I really once had a strong interest in all of this, now I no longer feel the same passion as before...

No matter how much I try to keep learning, it's hard to put it into action...

Everything is just empty talk. I feel jealous when I see others being able to pursue their hobbies, while I can only be stuck in the quagmire of academic anxiety;

when I see those who have achieved a lot, and those who are younger but better than me, I realize: I am not an 'ordinary person,' I am a failure，a loser;